Just Like A Vacation

Br Justlikeavacation
Warner Music Canada

1999

Produced By

Blue Rodeo

All Songs By

Keelor/Cuddy

1
Til I Am Myself Again (Live)
4:19
I want to know where my confidence went
One day it all disappeared
And I’m lying in a hotel room miles away
Voices next door in my ear

Daytime’s a drag, nighttime’s worse
Hope that I can get home soon
But the half-finished bottles of inspiration
Lie like ghosts in my room

I want to go
I know I can’t stay
But I don’t want to run
Feeling this way
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again

There’s a seat on the corner I keep every night
Wait til the evening begins
I feel like a stranger from another world
But at least I’m living again

There are nights full of anger
Words that are thrown
Tempers that are shattered and thin
And the moments of magic, are just too short
They’re over before they begin

I know it’s time
One big step
I can’t go
I’m not ready yet
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again

I had a dream that my house was on fire
People laughed while it burned
I tried to run but my legs were numb
I had to wait til the feeling returned

I don’t need a doctor to figure it out
I know what’s passing me by
When I look in the mirror
Sometimes I see traces of some other guy

I want to go I know I can’t stay
But I don’t want to run
Feeling this way
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again
2
What Am I Doing Here (Live)
3:22
On this useless night
With you so far away
I stand in front of this ferris wheel

And I wonder what am I doing here
And I wonder what am I doing here

And all the drunks just stumble by
And mumble their abuse
Tell me what is the use

And I wonder what am I doing here
And I wonder what am I doing here

After so long nobody’s wrong
After so long nobody’s right
After so long nobody’s wrong
After so long nobody’s right

On this useless night
With you so far away
I stand in front of this ferris wheel

And I wonder what am I doing here
And I wonder what am I doing here
And I wonder what am I doing here
3
Better Off As We Are (Live)
5:00
We sat around at night and talked about so many things
Lay on the floor till the morning appeared
You laughed at me and said I just don’t get it
You said we should be making plans for getting out of here

Somebody told me when I was just a little kid
Don’t follow leaders just think for yourself
But everybody minds everybody else’s business here
Why can’t they turn their eyes to somebody else

Tell me no use thinking
We could ever be something
We could rise with the stars
Better off as we are

My older brother he left the day he finished school
Moved down to New York to Washington Square
He calls me up and says you should come and see me
Watch the waves of people rolling everywhere

Tell me no use thinking
We could ever be something
We could rise with the stars
Better off as we are

Late in the evening I’m up in my room
Trying to think of nothing, clear away the day
I lie awake and let my body wander
Up into the moonlight floating away

Tell me no use thinking
We could ever be something
We could rise with the stars
Better off as we are
4
Floating (Live)
8:11
These late night conversations
Leave a strange taste
Like French cigarettes
And these coloured drinks
That you keep on throwing at me
Just keep on reminding me
That I came to forget

So now every night
You insist on reminding me
Of my lost possibilities
And the stains on the wall
Well I don’t mean to complain
Still it hurts just the same
And both of us know
The leaves will fall on their own

Just throw me a line
That’s all that I ask
It’s sink or swim and I’m going fast
I need love and it’s you
And I feel like William Holden floating in a pool

Yeah you tell me
Life is for living
It’s best in the giving
But it’s so hard to be free
Still I do my best
But you refuse my gift
Now all we share is a collection of tears

Just throw me a line
That’s all that I ask
It’s sink or swim and I’m going fast
I need love and it’s you
And I feel like William Holden floating in a pool
5
After The Rain (Live)
6:21
If I had my way
I would never go back
With my back to the wall
I just let myself fall
Watch the days turn black
But now and again I find
You cross my mind

If I was a train
I would never slow down
With my head in the sky
And the world going by
Every nowhere town
As I write one more letter to you
I know I can’t change the things that I do

One day
You will discover
Just why I ran
Ran away from you lover
I know I’m to blame
I feel so ashamed
Call out your name
After the rain

What do you want me to do
I’ve thrown away everything for you
I’ve wasted my dreams
Each day it seems
I’m losing my way back to you

It’s time for a change
What else can I do
The clock ticking time
I better make up my mind
Is it me or is it you
Tonight as I’m losing control
I will drink to the queen of my soul

One day
You will discover
Just why I ran
Ran away from you lover
I know I’m to blame
I feel so ashamed
Call out your name
After the rain
6
Fallen From Grace (Live)
4:02
The sun won’t ever shine
Not like it used to do
And there will be moonlight in the sky
Won’t mean a thing to you

Friends and relations say you’ve changed
They say it is written in your face
Better get used to living like this
Now that you’ve fallen from grace

And you will walk across the floor
As the night becomes day
There will be trouble coming round
Sent down to test your faith

And when the friends you used to wait for
Stop coming around to your place
You better get strong somehow
Now that you’ve fallen from grace

Better get used to the sorrow
Better get used to the pain
Don’t even worry about tomorrow
You know it’s only today all over again

Better get used to the sorrow
Better get used to the pain
Don’t even worry about tomorrow
You know it’s only today all over again

Never mind the paper and the pen
They can’t help you anymore
Forget about the music
That used to lift up your soul

And when the lover that you lean on
Turns round and shows you a stranger’s face
Better get used to living like this
Now that you’ve fallen from grace

Better get used to living like this
Now that you’ve fallen from grace
7
The Ballad of The Dime Store Greaser and The Blonde Mona Lisa (live)
3:15
As the seconds are ticking in the corner of her eye
Nothing comes as fast as a glib reply
Like a kid who’s tired of a busted old toy
The pleasure’s worn thin so she makes a little extra noise

So the dime store greaser and the blonde Mona Lisa
Twist on smiles just to please each other
Until one of them finds that someone new
Well the other one is just going to have to do

Sometimes you get what you want
So be careful what you ask for
Remember what you got
Tossing her pennies in the wishing well

Mona Lisa reaches over for the sleeping pills
Like a jerk that butts into the front of the line
She’s got her reasons and he don’t mind
Absence is supposed to make the heart grow fonder

He’s hoping her vacation lasts a little bit longer
And they both have their tickets for the promised land
Still they don’t appreciate what they have
They can’t see what’s right in front of their eyes

They’ve been looking so long they finally went blind
And they lost what was right in front of their eyes
8
It Could Happen To You (Live)
5:12
They broke off the locks and they opened the doors
Fixed up the windows and painted the floors
Grew a little garden outside in the rust and sand
Raised up the roof till it touched the sky
Picked up the pieces that were left to die
Brought this building back with a healing hand

When you see trouble
You’re bound to move in on the double
You leave your mark upon everything
In your head those Liberty Bells still ring
But we know that you don’t even mean
A thing you say

So you brought in the army to do your job
Kicking in doors and swinging their clubs
Back in the morning to watch themselves on the news
You’re doing the bidding of the money man
If it turns out right they’ll call you friend
One little favour how could you really refuse?

Oh my heart is sinking
Same old useless worn out thinking
You live your life in the court of kings
Bow to the ruler and kiss the ring
But we don’t even understand a thing you say

It could happen to you
It could happen to you
It could happen to you sometime
When you least expect it
Done by the ones that you never suspected
All your bills come due
It could happen to you

You really got to wonder why you did it for
Cause you don’t need an army
To move out the poor
You brought it out once I know
You could bring it again

Oh my heart is sinking
Same old useless worn out thinking
Live your life in the court of kings
Count your money as the Raven sings
Safe and sound when the wrecking ball swings
But all your riches won’t mean a thing someday

It could happen to you
It could happen to you
It could happen to you
9
Girl In Green (Live)
7:10
It doesn’t matter what you say
No it don’t matter how many times you turn away
And I don’t care what all your so-called friends say
You’ll never ever change the way that I feel

We will be anything
We could be everything you want
We could be anything
We will be everything you want

What do I have to do to make you see the obvious
’cause if I deceive you I just deceive myself
Yeah I have faith but I feel so misunderstood
Are you what I think you are or just what I think I want ?

We will be everything
We will be everything you want
We will be everything
We will be anything you want

Am I your lover or a substitute
You say time will reveal all the truth
So I stopped loving you and I started wanting you
You slip away into your pleasant solitude

We will be everything
We could be everything you want
We will be everything
We will be everything you want

It’s all for the girl in green
10
Try (Live)
4:07
Don’t tell me I’m wrong
Cause I’ve been watching every move that you make
Hearts you steal with your make-up and heels
Trouble for the men that you take

Every time you walk in the room
I couldn’t even be sure of a smile
You were never the same way twice
But I’m falling in love

Night after night – oh it’s crazy

So many people who said
Girl you’ve got nothing but time
Oh you are a shining star
Don’t you worry about what you’re leaving behind

Every time you walk in the room
I couldn’t even be sure of a smile
You were never the same way twice
But I’m falling in love

Night after night – oh it’s crazy
Oh you got to try try try
Don’t you know you’ve got to try try try
Oh baby you try

Every time you walk in the room
I couldn’t even be sure of a smile
You were never the same way twice
I’m falling in love

Night after night – oh it’s crazy
Oh you got to try try try
Don’t you know you’ve got to try try try
Oh baby you try
11
Trust Yourself (Live)
6:07
Someday soon
I don’t know when
Your little world
Will come crashing in
Don’t think twice
I’ll be around
Turn your back
Someone’s gonna let you down

You know that it’s true
Nobody led you on
They left that to you
Now you’ll be alone
When the sun comes up
With your tattered little dreams
And a broken cup
Then you’ll have to
Trust yourself
And don’t believe in anymore lies

You waste your time
Think too much
Really make a mess
Of the things you touch
Poor little bird
With a broken wing
Better look around now
You know you’re losing everything
It’s just a game
Thought you had it all lined up
But somehow that’s changed

Now you’ll have to run
And not get caught
And you’ll have to hide
If you like it or not
Then you’ll have to
Trust yourself
And don’t believe in anymore lies

Someday soon
And it won’t be long
You’ll ring the bell
But they’ll all be gone
They took your jewels
And your statues too
Left you with a pile of things
You never learned how to use

Here it comes again
You showed us where it all began
Well here’s where it ends
And you’ll be alone
When the sun comes up
Tattered little dreams
And a broken cup
Then you’ll have to trust yourself
And don’t believe in anymore
Trust yourself
And don’t believe in anymore
Trust yourself
And don’t believe in anymore lies
1
Dark Angel (Live)
5:14
I met this girl
She’s walking through one of my dreams
She kissed my eyes
And everything that she said
Made so much sense to me
That I still feel like I’m half asleep

My dark angel
She gave me diamonds for eyes
She walked by
Now I’m hypnotised
By this dream
That just won’t stop
And I feel
Like I’ve always been lost in this dream

The rumours of heaven
Only speed the truth on earth
My dark angel
Shine your light on my curse
You are the other that I have to find
Until I do
I guess I’ll see you ’round my mind

So Colorado
Is a place I have to go
I heard a rumour
She loves the mountains and the snow
My dark angel
She gave me diamonds for eyes
My dark angel
I offer you my heart
My dark angel I think I loved you from the start

‘Cause there is this face I know
That I’ve never seen
Sometimes I feel I’m living in
Someone else’s dream
Still I’d like to thank you
For stopping to talk
And I wonder
Just into who’s dream did who walk
Oh my dark angel
Shine your light on me
Shine your light
Shine your light
Shine your light on me
2
Cynthia (Live)
4:43
So you saw that fire in the sky
Well I think that’s so cool
And I know that nothing will change you
You are nobody’s fool

Cynthia
Won’t you take me to
Pyramid Lake with you
We could watch the spaceships
Maybe they’d take us on a trip
Into that never ending sky
Into that wide and endless night

And you stood in their beam of light
And they showed you the bones on the moon
Well I hope I get to go there
With you real soon

Cynthia
Won’t you take me to
Pyramid Lake with you
We could watch the spaceships
Maybe they’d take us on a trip
Into that never ending sky
Into that wide and endless night

We could get there
Before the sun sets
And we’d put up your tent
Watch the stars
Dance all night
And watch that sun come up

Cynthia
Won’t you take me to
Pyramid Lake with you
We could watch the spaceships
Maybe they’d take us on a trip
Into that never ending sky
Into that wide and endless night
3
Montreal (Live)
4:13
We met in Montreal
Far from the crime
Moving in circles
Running with so little time
Sat and we talked
About rumours and lies
Stayed til the sun hit the floor

You wore the dress
From the old market stall
People and places
Said you were forgetting them all
I don’t know if I
Believed you or not
As I stared at you outside your door

Those were the times
That was our life
I probably couldn’t change
One little thing if I tried
Moments together mapped out
Like the stars in the sky
Now you’re in the things that I do
Still I miss talking to you

Late in your bed
You said don’t you be sad
Think of how lucky we are
For the things that we’ve had
Life that’s around me I’m letting it go
But you stay up here in my head

Those were the times
That was our life
I probably wouldn’t change
One little thing if I tried
Moments together mapped out
Like the stars in the sky
Now you’re in the things that I do
Still I miss talking to you
4
Piranha Pool (Live)
5:11
Leaning over the piranha pool
You just wave your magic wand
Dangling your fingertips
Into the world of the just beyond

Sitting ever so quietly
In your private dining room
Guiding the waves of destiny
Into the face of oblivion

So you’d rather be an opera star
At the turn of the century
You never asked for this miracle gift
A genius in the military

You’re try surprised with your own success
Hanging out with the judges and the corporate heads
You never anticipate the final toll
Still shining all your medals

For the final curtain call
You’re always talking about the here and after
But it don’t make much sense to me
Still for all the men that you condemn

I hope there’s some kind of heaven
And there’s got to be some kind of hell for you
Leaning over the piranha pool
You just wave your magic wand

Dangling your fingertips
Into the land of the just beyond
Sitting ever so quietly
In your private dining room

Guiding the waves of destiny
Into the face of oblivion
You’re always talking about the here and after
But it don’t make much sense to me

Still for all the men that you condemn
I hope there’s some kind of heaven
And there’s got to be some kind of hell for you
5
Bad Timing (Live)
5:11
Hey it’s me what a big surprise
Calling you up from a restaurant
Around the bend
I just got in from way up North
I’m aching tired now
And I could use a friend
I might be a fool
To think that you do
Want to see me again

It’s been awhile since I talked to you
Nothing wrong
Just nothing ever goes as planned
Many times I thought I’d call
I didn’t have your number in my hand
I know it’s true
You’d never do
The same thing to me

I never meant to make you cry
And though I know I shouldn’t call
It just reminds us of the cost
Of everything we’ve lost
Bad timing that’s all

Maybe soon there’ll come a day
When no more tears will fall
If we each forgive a little bit
And we both look back on it
As just bad timing that’s all

We used to have so many plans
Something always seemed to turn out wrong
I never could catch up to you
Moving on and doing what you’ve done
I don’t know why
The harder I try
The harder it comes

I never meant to make you cry
And though I know I shouldn’t call
It just reminds us of the cost
Of everything we’ve lost
Bad timing that’s all

Maybe soon there’ll come a day
When no more tears will fall
If we each forgive a little bit
When we both look back on it
Just bad timing that’s all
6
5 Days In May (Live)
8:19
They met in a hurricane
Standing in the shelter out of the rain
She tucked a note into his hand
Later on they took his car
Drove on down where the beaches are
He wrote her name in the sand
Never even let go of her hand

Somehow they stayed that way
For those 5 days in May
Made all the stars around them shine
Funny how you can look in vain
Living on nerves and such sweet pain
The loneliness that cuts so fine
To find the face you’ve seen a thousand times

Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
It wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always going to hit you by surprise
I know my past
You were there
In everything I’ve done
You are the one

Looking back it’s hard to tell
Why they stood while others fell
Spend your life working it out
All I know is one cloudy day
They both just ran away
Rain on the windshield heading South
She loved the lines around his mouth

Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
It wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always going to hit you by surprise
I know my past
You were there
In everything
I’ve done
You are the one
7
Hasn't Hit Me Yet (Live)
5:21
You say that you’re leaving
Well that comes as no surprise
Still I kinda like this feeling
Of being left behind

Yea this ain’t nothing new to me
Well it’s just like going home
It’s kinda like those sunsets
That leave you feeling so stoned

Hey hey I guess it hasn’t hit me yet
I fell through this crack
And I kinda lost my head
I stand transfixed
Before this streetlight
Watching the snow fall
On this cold December night

I never thought this could happen
But somehow the feeling is gone
You got sick of the patterns
And I got lost in this song

Hey hey I guess it hasn’t hit me yet
I fell through this crack
And I kinda lost my head
I stand transfixed
Before this streetlight
Watching the snow fall
On this cold December night

Hey hey I guess it hasn’t hit me yet
I fell through this crack
And I kinda lost my head
I stand transfixed
Before this streetlight
Watching the snow fall
On this cold December night

And out in the middle of Lake Ontario
The same snow is falling
On the deep silent water
The great dark wonder
Into the waves of my heart
Into the waves of my heart

Of my heart
8
Diamond Mine (Live)
10:31
You say the party’s over
But like a drunken fool
I never know when to leave
It’s just that in the eyes of this beholder
You mean everything to me

You say you don’t love me
You talk about the other boys
And you laugh in my face
But I know when you’re feeling sad and lonely
No other boy can take my place

‘Cause when I look into your eyes
Our love shines
Our love shines
Like a diamond mine

Nothing’s as obvious as what is lost
Nothings’ as painful as the cost
So let it shine
Let it shine

And I hear all these rumours about you
Yea the trash lines up at my door just to bring me the news
But all it does is make me kind of wonder
Why are people so eager to be so cruel

‘Cause when I look into your eyes
Our love shines
Our love shines
Our love shines
Like a diamond mine
9
Falling Down Blue (Live)
5:33
Everyone tells me I’m lucky
Got my whole life to live yet
I can’t say they’re wrong
But the days seem so long
Living inside of my head

Maybe I’ll get some relief now
Now that your things are all gone
I won’t sit here staring
At nothing all night
Bleary-eyed greeting the dawn

All right I miss you tonight
And I’m not really sure what to say
It keeps rolling in like a slow moving train
It gets harder and harder each day
Each time I think that the worst of it’s through
I am stopped in my tracks by some vision of you
All right I miss you tonight
I admit that I’m falling down blue

She lived outside of the city
On days when I’d visit her there
I’d watch her out dancing
All lit by the moon
The cold winds of time in her hair

Then we’d go driving for hours
Turn off the lights and just glide
Moving like spirits
Along through the night
The light through the trees as our guide

All right I miss you tonight
And I’m not really sure what to say
It keeps rolling in like a slow moving train
It gets harder and harder each day
Each time I think that the worst of it’s through
I am stopped in my tracks by some vision of you
All right I miss you tonight
I admit that I’m falling down blue
10
Lost Together (Live)
6:16
Strange and beautiful
Are the stars tonight
That dance around your head
In your eyes I see that perfect world
I hope that doesn’t sound too weird

And I want all the world to know
That your love’s all I need
All that I need
And if we’re lost
Then we are lost together
Yea if we’re lost
Then we are lost together

I stand before this faceless crowd
And I wonder why I bother
So much controlled by so few
Stumbling from one disaster to another

I’ve heard it all so many times before
It’s all a dream to me now
A dream to me now
And if we’re lost
Then we are lost together
Yea if we’re lost
Then we are lost together

In the silence of this whispered night
I listen only to your breath
And that second of a shooting star
Somehow it all makes sense

And I want all the world to know
That your love’s all I need
All that I need
And if we’re lost
Then we are lost together
Yea if we’re lost
Then we are lost together
11
Florida (Live)
7:16
I remember Florida
The land of endless malls
Images of Elvis flicks
Convertibles and blondes
And I remember crying
As you walked away along the shore
The last words I heard you say were ‘what a bore’

And I remember drinking
In those air-conditioned bars
Putting all my quarters in a jukebox
With big silver stars
And I remember Nat King Cole
Singing a song about the rain
Oh I’m feeling blue again
Oh I’m feeling blue again

And it was just like a vacation
Yea I’m sure we had us some fun
Yea it was just like a vacation
And I swear we even sat out in the sun

You see my mother owned a trailer home
On West Broward past A1A
And to beat the North wind
We took a spin
To that tin can by the sea
Well I thought she was mine
But she was just passing time
She even passed out of town in my car
And left me with Nat King Cole
And the silver stars
Nat King Cole and the silver stars

And it was just like a vacation
Yea I’m sure we had us some fun
Yea it was just like a vacation
And I swear we even sat out in the sun